fuzzy head
i fell asleep for an hour, when i woke up i felt a cold start
to come sneaking. i don't wanna get sick now, it's new years
on friday and i don't wanna spend that day in bed.
my head feels fuzzy and i have no powers (sorry babe), strength now.
i wanna go back and be a child again. around that time you
were never alone when you were sick. people were takin care of you
all the time and did everything they could to make you feel better.
where is that spirit now days when you get sick?
you are all alone and people just avoid you so they don't get sick
themselves. so, cross me fingers, i don't wanna get sick!
when i woke up, i had a dog on me head.
vagabond had also fell asleep and chosed my head as a
good place to sleep. i don't think he knows that he's to big
and heavy now days.
now i'm goin to go through some old pics and see if i can find
some fun. :)
cross me fingers.
one hour sleep last night and i'm still not tired. what's wrong
with me? hopefully me body gives up soon so i can sleep
the whole night. i cross me fingers that it will happen.
tomorrow i will know if this is goin to be a work week
or not. so once again i cross me fingers that i can work.
three weeks until me baby is comin here, or it is tomorrow
anyway. i hope these weeks will go faster then ever.
it's goin to be so great to finaly be with him again.
me one and only.
stuck in the house!
i just spent the last 20 minutes of trying to get me out of
this house. affe was the last person the get out of this
house today, and she manage to lock me in.
the front door was meaningless, it didn't move even a little bit,
it was stuck. the patio door was snowed up and didn't wanna get
opend either. so i went down to the basement and tried that way
instead. it was snow up to my waist, and i had to climb the
snow piles. that was an experience i could have lived without.
oh well, i'm back under me blanket now. so nice and warm!
i think it's pretty fun how some people doesn't remember
that it's new year on friday. texting with jossie right now and
she's about makin other plans with me that day. can't stop
laughing, we'll see how long it takes before she understands it.
jossie, you make me days a little bit better!
update.
didn't feel as bad when i woke up this morning as i thought
i would feel. but i've still spent pretty much all day in the
couch watching some movies and eating a lot of candy.
i was planing to go out today to, and even if i'm not feeling
hangover any more, i don't feel like goin out.
i just realized that i'm unhealthily paranoid.
it's like i can't see myself happy, and that i think that i'm
always is goin to be let down and get hurt. i want this stupid
feeling to go away. cause i just wanna be happy now.
christmas
and the christmas is over. pretty sad actually..
the first couples of hours didn't really feel like
christmas. then it turned three. the big swedish
tradition, donald duck and mickey mouse on tv,
a lot of diferent short parts of disney movies
wishing us all a merry christmas.
and around that time me and affe started to drink.
around six, affes friend linn came over to drink
with us befor we head down town for some drinks
and dancing. i have to say, i didn't really feel
like goin out on christmas but i had a really
good time with the girls.
now i just wanna lie here and watch some "friends"
while i'm tryin to go to sleep. (not so tired yet.)
to all people who made my christmas great i
just wanna say, thank you and i love you
all sooo much!
the night befor christmas
tomorrow it's christmas, where is the spirit?
it doesn't really feel like it's tomorrow..
give me some childish christmas spirit!
i remember just a few years ago,
when we woke up on christmas morning and
had the spirit all around us. lovely times!
oh well, i hope it's gonna feel more real
tomorrow.
now, i'm going to play "Bingolotto" with
mum and jollan.
i wish me baby could be here to spend
this time with me. i miss him so much..
cold!
just got home after me meeting with "uniflex".
well, like i said such a waist of time. they pretty
much just said when i had to come back.
that took 15 minutes.
for that i almost died from the cold and got none
sleep again..
this cold is killing me, minus 20-25 degrees outside
now. i can't stand it anymore, give me the heat back!
i have to go outside again in a few hours to go to jossie.
if i die today, i want you guys to know that i love ya all
very much.
now, a long hot shower!
title.
finaly done with the christmas shopping.
i went out to "valbo" with jollan earlier today.
just the things to the game left to buy. but
that's not so hard.
tomorrow morning i'm goin in to town for
a meating with "uniflex", my new coaching
something.. feels like a waist of time.
but yeah, we will see tomorrow.
tomorrow night it's time for some wine
att jossie's again. yeeey!
now i'm going to eat some ice cream and
watch some more friends. cozy!
"I found a place so safe, not a single tear The first time in my life and now it's so clear Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere I wouldn't change a thing about it This is the best feeling"
snowing
the snow is still fallin and it wont stop. but i like
the snow better then the cold. tomorrow it supose
to be - 20 degrees and - 25 on wednesday.
i don't think i wanna leave the house if that's
happenin.
snow snow snow..
been sleepin for a few hours now in the evening.
feels like i've been catching up with some lost
sleepin. goodie goodie!
tomorrow i'm going out to "valbo" to do the
last christmas shopping.
future
i lie here in the couch cuddling with my baby dogs
while watching "friends".
this day has passed by pretty quick. thank good,
i don't like sundays so much. they're always so
slow and lonly. but it's over soon, 1½ hour to go!
it's still snowing way to much. i was just outside,
and some places had snow high abowe me knees.
it's crazy! this is going to be a long long winter.
they were just talkin about the future on
"friends" and that makes me think to..
where are we all in a few years?
we have no future, we're all going down in 2 years.
we are all loosing our future.
no actually i don't think that's going to happend.
we still have the time of our lifes left. we still
have to do all the grown up things, live our real lifes,
and have no time for going under.
it's still just the begining!
i'm such a grown up sometimes. it scares me. .
snow
is it ever going to stop snowing? if it keeps snowing
like this, we will never be able to leave the house.
AND i might not be able to work tomorrow.
so stop snowing i wanna work!
i've been spending me last hours lookin for an apartment.
doesn't people wanna move these days or what's wrong?
cross me fingers tho.
i've also decided that i'm damn good at strine. [aussie slang]
i don't know what all that i say or wright means
but i think i'm pretty damn good anyway. or not?
we'll see tomorrow if i can work or not, it all depends on
the weather.
decoration
finaly some christmas spirit.
jolin and i have done the whole house with christmas decoration.
it looks soooo nice right now, pretty damn proud of us.
she wasn't much of a help tho, that little devil..
oh well, it's done anyway, and it makes me feel happy.
one pic of it..
and finaly we can start the countdown until pete's coming here.
that makes me feel even more happy. it's still a month to go tho,
but we have a date, and i'm so damn happy that he's finaly coming.
i miss you way to much babe!
a chill weekend this week to. i'm surprised to say, but i actually
like these weekends best now days. damn, even i'm starting to
grow up. finaly..
time
i wanna to be able to turn back time, to thailand.
and all the great times we had there. i miss it so much.
or i wanna be able to make time go faster, make this
month go way fast so i can see my babe again. i miss
him way to much to be away from him this long..
soon he'll be here and everything is gonna be so good.
i've been talking to sophie in the phone and on skype
today, and for the first time seen little winston. he is so
cute! can't wait to see that little guy around christmas.
unfortunatey i had to speak with jesper a while to. that's
not something you wanna do too often. he is a mean guy.
now i'm lookin forward to go to winstons baptism in
the early february.
and get away from gävle for a weekend. nice nice.
i'm all by myself again, i just hate it..
wednesday
the lucia celebration at jossies was great. we had a lot of fun
with gossip, pop corn fight and waaaay to much wine for me.
my memories from that night is a little bit to far away, but i know
we had a great time.
wasn't that fun to wake up yesterday and realize that i have to
go to work. it was a very long day, but it went pretty well.
it was a lot easier to go to work today, and we had a lot more
to do so the time passed by pretty quick.
we'll see tomorrow morning if i have to work or not.
it's supose to be a big snow kaos so we'll see.
i've been playing around with our old lego the past couple of
hours. that brought up some old old old memories.
aaaw, wonderful childhood! when you didn't have any worries
or problems in the whole world.. wish it was that easy now days.
jossie told me the other day that the world is supose to
go under 2012. now i'm a little bit worried.
i have a lot to do in 2011!
crazy girl, crazy girl, crazy girl..
only 9 days until christmas. panic? hell yeah.
have to do some more christmas shopping. but it's so damn hard!
no christmas decoration done today. have to do it tomorrow.
i wanna have some christmas feeling now!
oh well, i'm pretty bored here. sometimes i really really hate to
be home alone. but the others are coming home soon. yeey!
some pics!
lucia celebration.
upcoming; Lucia celebration at jossies place tomorrow.
don't know why and don't need to know why we're naming
it "lucia celebration", but it's a good reason for wine drinkin
and gossip. we like it big time!
my camera has been banned tho, and that's a pity.
i love my camera! it's the best way to remember all the
good things.
well, if it sneakes down into my bag all by itself, it's not
my fault at all! i'm evil..
i'm not sure yet what els this week has to offer, but i don't
think it is so much more. we'll see, we'll see.
some more christmas shopping is one of the things that has
to been done tho.
"you're always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul.. "
christmas
i like this quiet weekends, when you just cuddling and doing nothing.
just wish i didn't have to be alone.
i bought my first christmas gift today. really really proud of myself.
it's still alot before i'm done with the christmas shopping tho. but
i have another two weeks to go so i think i can do it all in time.
i really love the christmas. all the christmas decorations,
being with all the people you love the most, christmas gifts,
being with all the people you love the most, christmas gifts,
all the good food, the Stenberg familys traditional christmas game,
and believe it or not, santa.
this christmas i wish i was 13,295 km away and spent it with
the person i want to spend it with the most. Or the other way around.
but since i realized that i'm not a witch and can't do magic,
i kind of understood that it's just something that will have to wait..
NOW, a little more "friends" and then talking to babe befor he's off to work.
christmas shopping
the wednesday party at jossies place was as
always great. great time with great people.
i think we could make this to a tradition to do
every week.
Tanks guys!!
today i was trying to do some christmas shopping with jolin.
it really didn't work out the way i wanted to. no shopping done..
but god she can talk alot when she's in the mood for that.
i realized today that i'm very short. jolin, who is 9 years younger
than me, has like 10 cm until she's as tall as me. I'M SHORT!
i miss my baby!
english version.
i'll try to start writing this blog in English for a while now.
we'll see how long i can handle that. i give it a go anyway.
nothing special has happened since the last time i wrote thogh.
i have to be better on writing than i've been the last couples
of month. i will try my best!
friday night. nice party at jossies place.
party, peoples, pictures. the three P:s.
a great night that we have to do all over again very soon.
yesterday i had a fattybomba night with miss sara ljung.
we eat alot, still feeling full after that.
we saw a bunch of crappy movies. but we had fun as always.
we saw a bunch of crappy movies. but we had fun as always.
tomorrow. i have some stuff to take care of.
and i just found out that after that i'm going over to jossies
place for a drink or two. damn that's nice.
i'm going to reply for some more jobs now and then
there's "the nanny" - time, for the rest of the night.
todelo!
botten
att vissa dagar kan vara så bra och andra bara känns
så botten. idag är en sådan bottendag och det finns
verkligen ingenting jag kan göra åt saken..
jag vill vara ett par mil härifrån. väldigt väldigt många
par mil faktiskt. i "the land down under".
men det är bara drömmar alldeles för långt bort..
90's
igår kvart det en kväll hemma hos jossie.
det var väldigt trevligt och nog en nödvändighet
för oss båda. Go 90-talet! :)
